Days go by and merge into one long never ending Groundhog day at times. Well it does for me -every now and then.
I create excitement in my life by signing up to do things that I think are going to get me out of the slump. Give my life a wardrobe of scenery changes and with that hopefully comes new feelings.
These feelings are my drug- the euphoria I crave . The rush of blood to the head. Anything to make me feel worthy.
Be careful what you wish for.
In all the time I have wished for things to change and things to not stay the same. It is has had good outcomes and bad.
I guess the crucial question is what is it I have been wishing for that I have created to become my reality.
What about relationships?
We can all get into “are we doing enough” in our relationships?
Are we living life together and truly going for it?
Be Careful what you wish for.
Sometimes it is okay for things to stay the same.
What am I going on about?
Say someone you care about has an appointment for an eye test or a medical review.
You then get a phone call saying that person has to go to hospital to get another opinion on their health status.
Why didn’t this person tell me things could get so serious?
I’m in shock. I don’t react.
This second opinion then turns into a third opinion.
No more mundane sameness. I have got my wish.
Am I prepared?
To do surgery or not? This is two people I know and love now, one is definitely having invasive surgery on thursday and the other person is to find out if they should have surgery.
You can’t buy health.
You can try…..
When your health is steady and away -this is a good time to not wish that there was more going on in your life.
I would rather live the rest of my days partying hardly if it meant the health of the ones I adore didn’t go from not something to worry about, to
fuck what am I going to do if I lose you mode.
Accept that whatever/whomever you have in life is a blessing.
So what if you don’t have a model’s clothing wardrobe , a TV. the size of an over inflated sponge bob character?
So what if you don’t get a loads of likes on your posts, status updates and profile pictures?
Yes, all of these things can give you that high we crave. The one that gets our heart beating like a wooden drum.
Success after hard work or not is an exhilarating feeling.
Personally, I just don’t think it would keep my happiness momentum going say, for as long as I had the people around me- well and in my life.
I too want to better myself and have everything better .Sometimes it’s alright if something is serving it’s purpose and is good enough.
I don’t believe we are put into the world to seek validation from others.
Though I can’t tell you how many times and years I have wasted seeking it.
There is so much that is superficial – nobody knows what is real.
I watched a documentary on the fashion industry last week. Watch the TRAILER if you can. Us ladies and now men strive to achieve to fit into clothes made to look good on a 13/14 or 15 year old child.
The targets are the coy lolita looking ones that , say a girl out of Siberia -living in a world of poverty at the back end of a communist regime era , with the promise of earning loads of money and travelling the world off the back of their one playing card- their looks.
There are children going over to Asia or the West and can’t speak English and are children and get exploited. There is no glossing over it.
These girls start going to modelling schools as young as 5 years old learning to manipulate the camera –
Make love to it !
Isn’t it crazy that most of us humans in this world are brainwashed into having sick minds?
Isn’t there enough disease and suffering for the taking?
We get older and still strive to dress in provocative clothes that can only look good on a 13/14 year old model!
That whole sentence is just incongruous.
This is the extent to how ill our society is.
How ill we all are.
We get older – fashion can’t survive on yesterdays’ image!
We don’t even have time to get the ‘today’ look off the hanger.
The fashion world and society won’t let us enjoy a moment that extends further than a sales transaction and a bag of goodies ,that mainly ends up as close to your body as, that sinister lampshade you inherited from some distant relative.
It makes you shudder every time you pass it or look at it. Epic impulse buy. I buy into it -a lot of us do
So, we are always chasing the ‘look of tomorrow’, usually a younger version of some ‘ideal image’ that could easily have found it’s way into the Deity section in the Roman world.
It is an illusion.
Our bodies and minds change in our lifetime. Nature dictates and so does society.
Often both are in conflict.
We are not meant to be trapped in a peter pan -esque body for the rest of our lives.
I’ve kind of digressed.
Well, I have made it less personal.
This is how the post started- health and my loved ones as being something personal to me .
I guess I have taken the model industry and society as an example of what our t idea of what healthy and successful is.
It then becomes something that is hopefully a post we can all relate too.
If it is personal to all of us, maybe we can understand or start to question what is the picture of true health and success.
What is true happiness?
What is true?
There is no need to go chasing dreams and filling other’s pockets if it is going to make you ill.
Instead of being a small dot in soemone else’s story go and make your own. I’m sure you will get to the end of your story in a better mental and physical state . HAPPY EVEN!
Be Careful what you wish for.