Please if you will -take the time to read this post or any Blog posts raising awareness about mental health. May is Mental Health Awareness month.
We all have Mental health – it can become good and Bad and does change -all the time.Illness does not discriminate when it comes to our Mental Health or our Physical health.
I don’t know about our soul.
I only can pray that it leaves our soul alone.
If for whatever reason it does affect our soul then we all have a duty to become a unified spirit to fight stigma and raise awareness for the souls troubled by the many maladies ready to lock jaw our loved ones.
It was Hectic day yesterday. I went to visit my Gran (as I usually do) and I found her sat in her chair screaming at something or someone. When I walked closer to her and checked around the bend to see who she was so angry and frightened at , there was nobody there!
I went up to her and went to say hello and comfort her. Her eyes shimmered. Possibly happy to see a human with her. I don’t know. I don’t think she recognised that I was her grandchild. She may have just been happy to see a familiar face?
I started talking and she saw my engagement ring. This is a ring that has been passed down from her now deceased mother. She gave it to my Mom. When me and G got engaged, Mom gave it to me. She was there when he proposed!
She started trying to get it off my finger and then he went to hit me.
I wasn’t afraid.
I was shocked.
My Ma reckons I took it too personally. I didn’t.
People say she is not who she was and her mind is not there but she is still here in her body and just because she presents herself as a person not here nor there.
I know she is living somewhere in the past or present at an almost hallucinogenic frequency.
No she can’t talk but she knows – on some level that ring was her mothers and she for whatever reason – did not like me wearing it or it conjured some memory of it.
I don’t know.
We play music – it sometimes help –
sometimes it doesn’t.
I sing this to her a lot. She loved this song and always laughed when I sang it to her. Here is the English translation
Chocolates and sweet things seem to be the only thing that make her happy.
Which is fine for me!
Her wonderful, named carer is on holiday for a few days and I found her not cared for or like she usually is.
I know she makes a mess of her clothes with food but yesterday she appeared to me to be filthy . Her eyes were full of green gunk.
She was tired,
She smelt obnoxious.
I never smell anything bad when I go and visit my Gran. Mom and I discussed it. She may have a urine infection and that may be why she smells and is more disorientated than usual.
5 weeks to go to the wedding. Ma is convinced my Gran will be there for the ceremony. I want this,of course , then, I also know that to keep her quiet, her carer, will be feeding her sweets.
I suppose they do that at the care home but it sounds so harsh – so selfish. Doesn’t it?
Ma wants her God to take her. I understand why but what about when she is gone?
We will never see her again. Never see even a faint glimpse of her smile
I will never see this face again -feel her hands.
I know I have my photographs and my videos. My mind was fucked up when I got home yesterday.
Another Daisy rant but it is mental health awareness month and it is Dementia awareness week from 16- 21 May 2016 in the U.K.
Check out what is going on and what you can do HERE
This is what is happening in my local community.
To coincide with Dementia Awareness Week verd de gris in conjunction with Calderdale Libraries will be screening their beautiful film ‘Soul Journey’ at venues across the borough all week, including Halifax Central, King Cross, Hebden Bridge and Todmorden Libraries.
The film explores some of the myths that build up around dementia and weaves together spoken word, moving images and an original score to capture some of the beauty and dignity of the people taking part – and to celebrate the extraordinary richness of the landscape that means so much to them.
If you want to take part in the creative sessions contact firstname.lastname@example.org for more information
I recently became part of a Face book support group-DEMENTIA AWARE U.K. and they are a great bunch of people. It helps to hear other peoples thoughts and what is going on for them and their loved ones.
If you use FB or other social media websites you can search in the FaceBook search bar for groups to join , wherever you are in the world.
Some lovely individual shared this poem with me.