“You would think that getting married to a fine man in three weeks time , a beautiful funny ,smart 4 year old daughter, a loving family and a lady with a lot going for her, could never be labelled or be entitled to feeling Depressed or stressed or Anxious- This is not how Mental Health issues work. I try and over come my own illness symptoms by using healthy coping mechanisms. If you are going to give advice -don’t tell a person to shake themselves off. If you want to help -be productive and be smart and help with advising on healthy ways to cope” DAISY
I’ve tried pretty much all my coping skills to get me out of this slump. I won’t give up. I exercised my way out of a panic attack yesterday. Yes, I am meds but it takes time to kick in. I am not great with being patient.
I look at my daughter for strength, I try distraction techniques- these work for a time but the weight of these feelings come back and so every day I put on my armour. Chant my mantra’s and enter the arena -ready for another battle.
Each day- I don’t give in , I know that I am on my way to winning. I’m disciplining my mind. I am not giving up on Hope.
My first quote for the three day quote challenge nominated by
The darkest fairytale-Rhymes that still exist from the reality of dark fairytales never told…. – I love her quote on her about page. I’m using it as my second.
“Poems can’t judge you for healing wrong but a therapist could.”
My final quote:
“If you always look downwards you will always see a pavement of despair. If you lift your head up and always look around you and to the sky you will always have many directions to lead a life of every imaginable feeling that is indeed the skies limit “ DAISY
Today I am accepting all the Amaze-balls awards I have received of late.
I am doing everything in my power to shift this tug in my heart and this stake of sorrow that hits the spot and lands on point like the most graceful, macabre Ballerina in all of Mine kingdom.
Nominees ( chosen for how they command emotion and the written word- I love their style of writing)
THANK YOU FOR THE CHALLENGE. The person who inspired me to write my own quotes is Jaqueline at a cooking pot and twistedtales Thoughts and Tales Etc..A Lifestyle Blog with a Zing»
THANK YOU B.G. from GETTING THROUGH ANXIETY -A step by step process using practice for :
Ouch, bee sting! What book did you find disappointing?
I was highly disappointed in ‘The Beautiful and Damned’
A Classic Novel by F. Scott Fitzgerald. I hated every single character and it made me re think my obsession with wanting to live the ‘Roaring twenties’ era .
It’s finally warm outside! What book made you want to read more than ever before?
So, I don’t really do reading outside. I get too distracted by the nature. I really enjoyed George Orwells ‘1984’ and I was hooked on the Y.A. novels ‘ The originals’
Shh! I’m getting a tan! What book did you find relaxing?
I don’t tend to read ‘relaxing books’ erm.. I suppose the last book I read that didn’t require too much thought was’ The Paris Wife’
Novel by Paula McLain. I found and loved the depth to the characters and the reference to all the revolutionary readers and artistes that scrambled to Paris after World War one to make some sense of this new world-post war. A surprisingly great read.
Beach party! What book did you just find fun to read?
Again another classic. ‘ To kill a mockingbird’ by Harper Lee- the language used is just like taking a trip to another time. There are heavy themes addressed in the book but I love that the book is taken mostly from a child’s point of view. I loved that I was able to smile even in a book that addresses such heavy themes such a racism.
Cannonball!! What book did you find surprising?
‘ I Am Pilgrim’
Novel by Terry Hayes – This book was written for my inner detective. So cleverly put together. So many twists and turns. I could NEVER have predicted the ending. A terrifying book because it could so easily happen in the world we live in.
Mowing the lawn. What book did you find tedious?
I think that Sylvia Plath’s Bell Jar’ does not live up to the hype. She is a fabulous poet and writer but the ‘Bell Jar’ left me cold. I know it is probably one book I should relate most too – dealing with themes such as Mental illness but the hype around the book didn’t leave me with all I expected. Yes, I guess people surmise she was writing about her own Mental health issues and I find that to be the only interesting part of the book. It may be autobiographical. It is not an awful book -just not epic -in my humble opinion.
So many beautiful flowers! What’s the most recent book you’re happy you picked to buy?
So far ,the one I am reading. ‘The Storm sister’ by Lucinda Riley. So far it has me hooked not to the point I can’t put it down but their is mystery, romance and a look into the mind of a protagonist with a character so unlike myself.
TAG YOU ARE IT!
This is one of the reasons I love Etta’s Blog.
“I’ve learned from my mistakes, but I have no regrets. I use to regret my past wishing that I could go back and change it. But realised that it’s our past that has brought us to the point we are now in our lives; and changing anything in the past, changes everything in our present. With all it’s up and downs I wouldn’t wish give up anything that I have now. My faith gives me strength, my family keeps me grounded, my appetite for adventure keeps me going, and my heart makes me the woman that I am!”
ETTA D. (pen name)
SEVEN FACTS ABOUT ME
Daisy Willows unfortunately is not my real name. I wish it were. It is my pseudonym .
I am not sure whether to tell you my real name or not.
I am complicated.
I wing it and tend to make it.
I wear my heart on my sleeve
I have always been a rule breaker.
I’m in love.
MY FIVE NOMINATED LOVELIES
Finally a re- nomination from I SING THE BODY ELECTRIC-Refusing to let my past define my future- An abuse survivor specialising in female balls and badassery!
B.E.’s Blog captured in Music. She is a rule breaker. I think I have found my cosmic twin. We must never get together and discuss.. we may just start a revolution. Ha! Ha!
11 FACTS ABOUT DAISY (ME)
I have a BA (hons) in the Arts and humanities – majored in ‘Advanced creative writing’ and ‘Myth in the Greek and Roman Worlds’
I have lived in three continents – Africa- Europe and Americas
I volunteer with Mental health charities.
I have a foundation degree in Acting performance
My cousin made me audition for the X factor because she didn’t want to do it alone. I can’t sing at all.
I think I am an introvert but I come to life in groups.
People say I am witty and funny.
I love to dance
my wedding is in three weeks time
Music stirs my soul
my real name is Natasha Sonia Bodley
I’m going to answer questions I would love others to ask me. If you want to answer B.E.’s- The Body is Electric Blog questions instead click HERE
If You Could Live In A Book, TV Show Or Movie, What Would It Be?
I would love to live in the ‘Originals’ series . The Michealson family are the epitome of cool of all the supernatural creatures.
2. Where Do You See Yourself In Five Years?
Still married to the same dude, one or two more kids, a play wright and working in the community creatively with people with mental Health issues and getting paid to do it.
3. If You Could Live Forever, How Would You Spend Eternity?
I would research every illness to find a cure and I would also find the answer and fight for climate change. I would also get to watch my daughter and other kids and my grand children live. I would also visit all the libraries around the world and travel and eat good food.
4.In What Ways Do You Hold Yourself Back?
I am way too hard on myself. I think people think the worst of me.
5.What Was Your Dream Job Growing Up?
I wanted to to a criminal Psychologist and a Criminal lawyer.
6.If You Could Change One Law, What Would It Be?
I don’t do drugs any more but I still would legalise all drugs. Crime would fall , the black market would not be as powerful and un controllable as it is and people would get the correct treatment. Less wars too and less lives lost.
7.What’s Your Greatest Achievement And How Has It Shaped You?
Everyday I push myself, is my Greatest achievement. Every day I make it to the end of the day and have done something I consider important and a goal achieved is my Greatest achievement. Each challenge I put in my way, shapes my character and gives me the courage to push myself in other ways. It gives me inner confidence.
8.If You Could Master One Skill You Don’t Have Right Now, What Would It Be?
I wish I hadn’t stopped learning how to play the piano. I love the piano and I love the violin too. I would love to be an Orchestra conductor . I feel music and it looks like a pretty cool position to be.
9. How Would Your Best Friends Describe You?
Honest, empathetic,strong willed, loving, witty and a pain in the ass.
10.What Is “Home” To You?
Home is where I can see and smell the ocean.
11. What Motivates You To Succeed?
Knowledge is power.
NOMINEES OF BLOGGERS I WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT.
Life As A Bipolar Artist A place for venting, explaining, and maybe learning something. (Sorry Anna -double award nominations)