Thank you for making me smile.


“You would think that getting  married  to a fine man in three weeks time , a beautiful funny ,smart 4 year old daughter, a loving family and a lady with a lot going for her, could never be labelled or be entitled to feeling Depressed or stressed or Anxious-  This is not how Mental Health issues work. I try and over come my own illness symptoms by using healthy coping mechanisms. If you are going to give advice -don’t tell a person to shake themselves off. If you want to help -be productive and be smart and help with advising on healthy ways to cope” DAISY

I’ve tried pretty much all my coping skills to get me out of this slump. I won’t give up. I exercised my way out of a panic attack yesterday. Yes, I am meds but it takes time to kick in. I am not great with being patient.

I look at my daughter for strength, I try distraction techniques- these work for a time but the weight of these feelings come back and so every day  I put on my armour. Chant my mantra’s and enter the arena -ready for  another battle.

Each day- I don’t give in , I know that I am on my way to winning. I’m disciplining my mind. I am not giving up on  Hope.

 

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My first quote for the three day quote challenge nominated by

The darkest fairytale-Rhymes that still exist from the reality of dark fairytales never told…. – I love her quote on her about page. I’m using it as my second.

“Poems can’t judge you for healing wrong but a therapist could.”

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My final quote:

“If you always look downwards you will always see a pavement of despair. If you lift your head up and always look around you and to the sky you will always have many directions to lead a life of every imaginable feeling that is indeed the skies limit “ DAISY

Today I am accepting all the Amaze-balls awards I have received of late.

I am doing everything in my power to shift this tug in my heart and this stake of sorrow that hits the spot and lands on point like the most graceful, macabre  Ballerina in all of Mine  kingdom.

Nominees  ( chosen for how they command emotion and the written word- I love their style of writing)

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THANK YOU FOR THE CHALLENGE.  The person who  inspired me to write my own quotes is  Jaqueline at a cooking pot and twistedtales Thoughts and Tales Etc..A Lifestyle Blog with a Zing» 

 

THANK YOU B.G. from GETTING THROUGH ANXIETY -A step by step process using practice   for :

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Ouch, bee sting! What book did you find disappointing?

I was highly disappointed in ‘The Beautiful and Damned’
A Classic Novel by F. Scott Fitzgerald. I hated every single character and it made me re think my obsession with wanting to live  the ‘Roaring twenties’ era . 

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It’s finally warm outside! What book made you want to read more than ever before?

So, I don’t really do reading outside. I get too distracted by the nature. I really enjoyed George Orwells ‘1984’ and I was hooked on the Y.A. novels ‘ The originals’ 

 

Shh! I’m getting a tan! What book did you find relaxing?

I don’t tend to read ‘relaxing books’  erm.. I suppose the last book I read that didn’t require too much thought was’ The Paris Wife’
Novel by Paula McLain. I found  and loved the depth to the characters and the reference to all the revolutionary readers and artistes that scrambled to Paris after World War one to make some sense of this new  world-post war. A surprisingly great read. 

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Beach party! What book did you just find fun to read?

Again another classic. ‘ To kill a mockingbird’ by Harper  Lee- the language  used is just like taking a trip to another time. There are heavy themes addressed in the book but I love that the book is taken mostly from a child’s point of view. I loved that I was able to smile even in a book that addresses such heavy themes such a racism.

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 Cannonball!! What book did you find surprising?

‘ I Am Pilgrim’
Novel by Terry Hayes – This book was written for my inner detective. So cleverly put together. So many twists and turns. I could NEVER have predicted the ending. A terrifying book because it could so easily happen in the world we live in. 

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Mowing the lawn. What book did you find tedious?

I think that Sylvia Plath’s Bell Jar’ does not live up to the hype. She is a fabulous poet and writer but the ‘Bell Jar’ left me  cold. I know it is probably one book I should relate most too – dealing with themes such as Mental illness but the hype around the book didn’t leave me with all I expected. Yes, I guess people surmise she was writing about her own Mental health issues and I find that to be the only interesting part of the book. It may be autobiographical.   It is not an awful book -just not epic -in my humble opinion.

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So many beautiful flowers! What’s the most recent book you’re happy you picked to buy?

So far ,the one I am reading. ‘The Storm sister’ by Lucinda Riley. So far it has me hooked not to the point I can’t put it down but their is mystery, romance and  a look into the mind of a protagonist with a character  so unlike myself. 

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TAG YOU ARE IT!

THE MINDFUL BITCH -FINDING PRESENCE BETWEEN MOMENTS OF SELF-IMPROVEMENT AND SELF-DESTRUCTION

The Beauty of Words- Mastering social media, writing, and editing

SIMPLY ETTA D. -Inspiration for the Heart, Soul and Mind

toofullltowrite- I’ve started so I will finish

Anna-Life As A Bipolar Artist A place for venting, explaining, and maybe learning something

Laura- Hundred and Counting Every day is a writing day

 

THANK YOU TO Morgan- SIMPLY ETTA D. -Inspiration for the Heart, Mind and Soul

 

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This is one of the reasons I love Etta’s Blog.

“I’ve learned from my mistakes, but I have no regrets. I use to regret my past wishing that I could go back and change it. But realised that it’s our past that has brought us to the point we are now in our lives; and changing anything in the past, changes everything in our present. With all it’s up and downs I wouldn’t wish give up anything that I have now. My faith gives me strength, my family keeps me grounded, my appetite for adventure keeps me going, and my heart makes me the woman that I am!”

ETTA D. (pen name)

SEVEN FACTS ABOUT ME

  1. Daisy Willows unfortunately is not my real name. I wish it were.  It is my pseudonym .  

  2. I am not sure whether to tell you my real name or not. 

  3. I am complicated. 

  4. I wing it and tend to make it. 

  5. I wear my heart on my sleeve

  6. I have always been a rule breaker.

  7. I’m in love.

MY FIVE NOMINATED LOVELIES

EDDAZRelationships, Love, Lifestyle

teleportingweena ~wandering through life in my time machine…you never know where it will stop next

The Daddy Blitz- Blogging about Family, Religion and Politics

spiritualjourney17 INSPIRATIONAL, MOTIVATIONAL AND A JOURNEY OF SELF-DISCOVERY

LINDA G. HILLLife in progress

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Finally a re- nomination froI SING THE BODY ELECTRIC-Refusing to let my past define my future- An abuse survivor specialising in female balls and badassery!

B.E.’s Blog captured in Music. She is a rule breaker. I think I have found my cosmic twin. We must never get together and discuss.. we may just start a revolution. Ha! Ha!

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11 FACTS ABOUT DAISY (ME)

  1. I have a BA (hons) in the Arts and humanities – majored in ‘Advanced creative writing’ and ‘Myth in the Greek and Roman Worlds’

  2. I have lived in three continents – Africa- Europe and Americas

  3. I volunteer with Mental health charities.

  4. I have a foundation degree in Acting performance

  5. My cousin made me audition for the X  factor because she didn’t want to do it alone. I can’t sing at all.

  6. I think I am an introvert but I come to life in groups.

  7. People say I am witty and funny. 

  8. I love to dance

  9. my wedding is in three weeks time

  10. Music stirs my soul

  11. my real name is Natasha Sonia Bodley

I’m going to answer questions I would love others to ask me.  If you want to answer B.E.’s- The Body is Electric Blog questions instead click HERE 

  1. If You Could Live In A Book, TV Show Or Movie, What Would It Be?

I would love to live in the ‘Originals’ series . The Michealson family  are the epitome of cool of all the supernatural creatures. 

2. Where Do You See Yourself In Five Years?

Still married to the same dude, one or two more kids, a play wright and working in the community creatively with people with mental Health issues and getting paid to do it. 

3. If You Could Live Forever, How Would You Spend Eternity?

I would research every illness  to find a cure and I would also find the answer and fight for climate change. I would also get to watch my daughter and other kids and my grand children live. I would also visit all the libraries around the world and travel and eat good food.

4.In What Ways Do You Hold Yourself Back?

I am way too hard on myself. I think people think the worst of me.

5.What Was Your Dream Job Growing Up?

I wanted to to a criminal Psychologist and a Criminal lawyer.

6.If You Could Change One Law, What Would It Be?

I don’t do drugs any more but I still  would legalise all drugs. Crime would fall , the black market would not be as powerful and un controllable as it is and people would get the correct treatment. Less wars too and less lives lost.

7.What’s Your Greatest Achievement And How Has It Shaped You?

Everyday I push myself, is my Greatest achievement. Every day I make it to the end of the day and have done something I consider important and a goal achieved is my Greatest achievement. Each challenge I put in my way, shapes my character and gives me the courage to push myself in other ways. It  gives me inner confidence.

8.If You Could Master One Skill You Don’t Have Right Now, What Would It Be?

I wish I hadn’t stopped learning how to play the piano. I love the piano and I love the violin too. I would love to be an Orchestra conductor . I feel music and it looks like a pretty cool position to be. 

9. How Would Your Best Friends Describe You?

Honest, empathetic,strong willed, loving, witty and a pain in the ass. 

10.What Is “Home” To You?

Home is where I can see and smell the ocean. 

11. What Motivates You To Succeed?

Knowledge is power. 

NOMINEES OF BLOGGERS I WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT. 

CyberneticBlonde- Be kind to yourself 🌻

Life As A Bipolar Artist A place for venting, explaining, and maybe learning something. (Sorry Anna -double award nominations)

THE PERPETUAL CAMPERS CALLING IT HOME -Stacy

Fiction is Food- G. Jeffries

Insights From A Bipolar Bear

INKYFIRE INK OF LOVE IN FIRE – DESIGN IS MY DESIRE

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BABS! @Autumn Ambles Pursuing my Wandering Ways With Words….Thoughts and Reflections!

Pride in Madness

LYNNE’S RECIPE TRAILS Delicious Foods and Tasty Indulgences

 

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59 thoughts on “Thank you for making me smile.

  1. Congratulations Daisy, this is an awesome post, obviously all the awards you were nominated for are well deserved. So great to find out more about you. I love your real name (which incidentally, is shared also by my daughter!) Hope you feel happier soon, especially with your wedding just around the corner. Hugs. 🙂

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    • Ah Yes, I am in good company with my real name, then 😀 . I still love being called Daisy- if I ever have another child and it is a girl – she will be called Daisy Willow. I know the wedding is mere weeks again.It is crazy. I’m getting married ,Miriam 🙂 xx

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      • Wow, how are you feeling? Excited, nervous, overwhelmed … I can remember feeling all of those emotions as the days got closer (mind you, that was a long time ago). I hope you enjoy it all Daisy. It’s such a special time for you. xx 🙂

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  2. First, Congratulations on your awards. Secondly, I see by the way you write you are a positive thinker & you remain focused on the task at hand. You will pull out of the slump you’re in, just because of your determination. I’m pulling for you, keeping good thoughts for you!

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  3. Yowza! What an epic list. 🙂 Congrats once again! Amaze-balls is right. It is alway a pleasure to stop by the Willows for a read.

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  4. I love seeing these award posts, they give so much insight into who a person is and are always so fun to read (and answer also). I enjoyed reading your replies (and I am quite used to calling you Daisy now, but I think your real name is so lovely). Thank you for the double nomination! No need to be sorry about it, I am excited to be considered! I truly do love answering the questions, I think it is a very nice distraction and a guilt-free way to indulge my introspective side.
    Hope you have a very good week! 🙂

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    • If I have another child and it is a girl. I will call her Daisy Willow. Yeah, some Bloggers come up with some super cool questions and it is fun to indulge in ourselves every now and again . I can’t wait to read your answers . Please continue to call me Daisy . Anna is a beautiful name too xx

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    • Of course- the challenge is to share and post a quote that you love or even one of your own over a period of 3 days. The first time I did the challenge I picked a quote that I liked and posted it.
      The rules:
      Pick a quote and post a different one for the next three days
      copy and paste the Link so it links back to your nominator ( me)
      Nominate three blogs you want to challenge.
      Once you have published your first post you can leave a comment on your nominees about page or a post that have published letting them know they have been nominated. Copy and past your post with the link with their Blog links in it. SO they know how to find you and if they take on the challenge they can link back the challenge to your Blog .

      I don’t know how to use pingback so I am not even going there.. but that is an easier way to link.

      Hope this makes more sense

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  5. Thank you very much for the nomination! I love the fact that my blog speaks to you despite our differing faith perspectives (it means I have effectively left the preacher on the curb).

    Also, coincidentally, I picked up To Kill a Mockingbird this weekend while at a lacrosse tournament out of town–in a Target no less (it just sat there amongst trashy novels screaming, “Pick me! Pick me!” as I walked by). I’ve read loads of classics, but for some reason I have never read that one. Oh the horror! I know, right? Wow, drew me in from the first line and couldn’t put it down. Can’t believe Lee only published one book. I too found myself smiling amongst the deep themes. I even shook the bed in laughter, annoying my sleeping wife, as Scout demanded that her uncle pass “the damn ham.” XD

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    • I read it in school and forgot the whole story. I knew the basic synopsis but a few months back I wanted to read it and take it all in properly. There is another book she wrote which I am wanting to read. It is called ‘Go set a watchmen’ it is about the protagonist -Scout in TKaMB returning to his home town as an adult. You are most welcome for the award 🙂 -It is a book I will read again. That I am sure. 🙂

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  6. You’ve got beautiful names, Ms. Bodley. I am wearing a smile as I read this. It’s always good to get to know others a little better and that quote of yours is just so cool. We really should keep looking up as often as we can. Even when we have everything going and falling into place for us, sometimes dark emotions do swirl and the good thing is that you are taking charge. Awesome post, my dear Daisy.

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    • (blushing) Thank you Jaques – when I lived in Barcelona. I hung out with an Italian girl for a while and she studied architecture .She was the first person to tell me that I look upwards and not downwards and that it was a good thing. I think that is how the quote got it’s roots xxx

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  7. I’d love to be your cosmic twin (Natasha) 😆 I love that you made up your own questions too, ms rebel! They were really imaginative ones too, I feel like I’ve found out LOADS about you. Thanks so much for the shout out too lovely. I so admire your sheer tenacity to push on, in spite of your MH problems and strive to achieve those goals like a proper badass! I have no doubt that you WILL achieve them as you have that recognisable spark within you and your enthusiasm is infectious to everyone. BIG HUGS 💜😁

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