“Emotional arrears were well over due. Today I got full payment and my soul is filled with warmth and love and a lightness that helps me move on. Thank you!”
It is very easy to point fingers and say
“oh that person is the one with all the issues. That person is insane”
Without taking a step out of your own mind and get another perspective.
When someone says I am crazy.
I know I have mental health issues but sometimes things that happen in life and how I react, is not just a symptom of my mental health issues.
I have emotions.
I have my own thoughts and feelings and my own perspective.
I did some “crazy” things of late. I am not proud of them and I have been emotionally destroyed and angry.
All I got was silence.
I was made out to be the person with all the issues. It got to the point where I thought
Yeah , this person is right. I am crazy.
Never mind, everything I have done and achieved in the past 6 years to get to who I am today.
I think people really need to be careful about flippant words and how they use them.
I started to believe I was what this person said. I thought I couldn’t take care of my daughter or be a normal functioning human being again.
Everything I am still working towards , I nearly threw in towel, because I allowed one person to get to me.
One small -minded perspective to get to me.
I can cause mayhem on my own but in this situation it took two to create an exploding time bomb.
My partner stood up for me. I finally feel vindicated and heard.
Ironically, he feels better too.
Sometimes, we need to take on another person’s perspective to get a clear picture of what is really going on.
The only way to do that is clear communication.
Texts and emails can be misinterpreted, especially when you are responding to emotion which causes hurt.
I have a remarkable man in my life. He took me outside ,into the sunshine today and said:
“Let’s bask in the light a little longer because you deserve to be in the light and be seen. I will always support you, protect you and be your champion. I understand more now.”
Yup, I have a real man. One in a million.
HERE HE IS
The only way to break down Stigma against mental illness is to communicate and not be silenced into shame.
I have so much purpose in my life but I wasn’t getting answers.
Now, I have my answers.
I feel my point of view has been slotted in to this persons life for however brief.
My heart is lifted.
I don’t feel ashamed anymore.
My heart isn’t breaking.
I don’t need social services to look after my daughter.
I don’t need to check into a clinic.
I am entitled to be happy and to move on.
Who doesn’t have mental health?
We all deal with stress and life issues and dips in our health in a variety of ways. Some are not always good.
Drinking for 2 days is probably not a great way to deal with a problem ,because it heightens emotions and it can have a bad interaction with medication, and that mix brings out the worst in many.
Some people smoke weed to deal with their issues others pop a Valium. Some do other things.
Who is to say who is right or wrong?
I know how to get back on track – what I know to be the right way for me.
I am back on track.
Our marriage is stronger and we closer because of this experience.
I always say, honesty is the best way to deal with people and situations.
Tell it like it is , if you build up a wall , well you lose out.
I can see the light again.
I can move on .
I won’t look back.
Heart ache and insults suck but I’ve learnt by sticking to my guns and being persistent I will find peace –
It’s a new day -well it is actually the end of a day, but I know who I am and what it has taken me, to get to the person I am today.
I fuck up .
My heart is lifted.
I can see the silver lining.
I have renewed hope.
I have my confidence back.
I am not my mental illness. I am not a psycho or crazy.
If I use shitty coping mechanisms, then yeah! my brain will flip out.
Study the brain and educate yourself.
Especially,if you don’t know what synapses and neurotransmitters and dopamine and serotonin are and what function and part they play in your brain, along with what environment and genes and, continual new neural structure pathways being made in the brain, do.
Pinkie Promise! SHOUT OUTS TO FOLLOW TOMORROW.
Can’t wait to check out all your lovely Blogs
The love just continues to grow.
Beautiful flowers and manly trees everywhere. I appreciate all of you, in all your natural beauty.
Oh and one more thing before I hit club duvet -zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz – check out what arrived in zee post today
CHARLIE ZERO POET – Signed by the man himself.
Awesome poet. Can’t wait to get reading.
Music is a positive way for me to get my mind in better mental health.
So, if someone calls you crazy or a psycho – get a second opinion.
A third even.
Don’t rely on the people who don’t even have a fucking clue who you are or even the ones who think they do.
OR MAYBE I AM NOT CRAZY?
REMEMBER IT IS ALL ABOUT PERSPECTIVE.
Daisy learns a life lesson 🙂