Sensibilise


Did I miss something?

I know people talk about having the blues, the Monday blues and motherhood blues but there is a day assigned to recognize,

Blue Monday!

Who came up with the concept to celebrate a day of woe?

My thoughts: people who want to capitalize on our misery. 

Pharmaceutical companies, people trying to sell us comfort kits or whatever.

I get the whole statistic thing, that it’s the third week in January and financially big organizations and businesses are feeling –  mainly pennies no freshly printed notes.

Can, I just put out it on here -that Monday has been the best day of the week for me, out of all the Monday’s in January.

Why?

I didn’t focus on my money situation, or if people liked me or if I was anxious. What made my Monday bluesy – Jazzy – full of a spectrum of emotions:

is seeing my Grandma.

Yes, she still has Dementia, she still is bedridden, in a care home but she is not on death’s bed, not in pain and she has been taken off palliative care.

I made her laugh – more than once- just being me!

I held her hand and I  felt a bit sad, nostalgic,  thinking I should do more.

Wondered about certain people I LOVE  who I only get to experience one dimensionally.  They are not here anymore.

Monday was blue and pink and yellow and it was a Fun day – it was ONE day of my life.

It wasn’t the saddest day of my life or the happiest.

I love the color Blue. Don’t dress it up and mark as a negative.

We are capable of feeling.

Yes, feeling and responding to others.

We are capable of making connections with others because we can feel and empathize.

What a gift!

Pain, feels like Niagara falls coming down on me. I love watching it. I’m in awe of its power. I don’t like feeling it. It does transform me and is a natural part of me.

Just like being happy is, angry, comical, loud, quiet, bossy, friendly, energetic, sloth-like.

I’m not into blue Monday.

When I feel the blues I listen to the blues.

This song (when it first came out) caused people around the world to commit suicide.

I find strength in this song. People have looked at me and thought ‘she must be deranged’ to find any beauty and comfort in this song,

I do.

I don’t feel driven to kill myself when I hear it.

I feel less alone. I feel like I’m not only one who has shit days.

Smurfs aren’t sad?  or is it the magic potion they drink that gets them all bouncy and energetic?

I don’t know.

I do know people place a lot of expectations on feeling a certain way because there is a day assigned to feeling shitty.

No, thank you, my moods are not controlled by the media and whoever else comes up with these ideas.

I deal with my emotions – every moment, every hour, every second.

I don’t get to leave to my mind.

If I’m feeling alright on a Monday -no one is going to tell me I should feel differently.

Just a thought on this cloudy  Wednesday.

Looking forward to Friday – not because it’s  the weekend. I never stop working!

I’m going to meet up with friends I haven’t seen for 8 years.

 silly poem alert.   

If you feeling the woo of the blues

Take a pint of milk from the cows that cheerfully moos.

Don’t despair – feelings change with random flair

Enjoy the sunshine in your heart, don’t hold up a wall that says beware.

Life is full of ups and downs, smiles and frowns

It’s okay to feel this way. No-ones escaping life with ‘ I faked it better’ crowns.

Remember when you feeling down – you are never alone 

Support is here when we are transparent and make ourselves fully shown.

Ha ha! Lame, I know. I don’t care.

One small rant:

This has been going around the social media websites.

From NHS Director to mental health inpatient in 10 days

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CLICK HERE TO READ HER PERSONAL JOURNEY

 

I’m so happy this person has found the strength to come out and fight against stigma, with the experience of being at the top of the hierarchy in dealing with mental health, and now,  having insight into how it feels to experience severe bad mental health.

By all means, I applaud this woman.

If the title caption had been ‘from  HOSPITAL CLEANER  to mental health inpatient  in 10 days’

what is the difference?

Who is more important?

Both make a significant contribution tothe U.K. health service, do they not ?

Just saying…….

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38 thoughts on “Sensibilise

  1. I feel this post. You and I, have something in common.
    I too, have a grandpa who has Dementia & Alzheimer’s. It’s difficult to see and witness your family going through a hard time. At the end of the day, a smile and laughter can help our family. The laughter of medicine is the only cure.

    Bless you my friend.

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  2. According to Wikki it dates back to 2005 when someone worked out the most depressing day of the year using some kind of equation. Oddly enough, it was put out there as a press release by some company so, yeah, all bollocks (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blue_Monday_%28date%29?wprov=sfla1).

    It does have some links back 19th century workers who referred to it as something to do with hangovers. To me though, it’s something to do with Kurt Vonnegut who used the phrase “Goodbye Blue Monday” in his book Slaughterhouse 5 (I think).

    Ps awesome news about your gran. Hold onto those moments and fuck blue Monday xx

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  3. Wonderful post. I never heard of Blue Monday (except the song) before this year. It was a weird blip all over my facebook page that day. Big set up by big pharma and false news. I thought it was just an American thing until I saw someone from the U K had a post about it. Glad you had some wonderful moments with your gran! She is a tough cookie. ❤

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  4. I despise Mondays being blue just as much as I despise Friday being the day to look forward to. What about the days in between? We aren’t meant to dread the start of every week and countdown the days until we can temporarily enjoy ourselves again. I also love blue, especially in hues like turquoise, the beautiful blue on a sunny day with no clouds, the deep blue of the sea, and the frosty blue hue of icicles. I’m so glad that you got to spend time with your grandma and get her to laugh on a Monday! 😉 Sending you lots of love ❤

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