Don’t let life, and how other people treat you to allow you to become bitter. Don’t expect people who keep the same company to be on the same level as you. Be a good person.
Remain honest, full of heart and genuine.
You do not owe anything to anyone who chooses to disrespect you or your values.
Remember – we all have our own way of coming to a conclusive thought or opinion. We are human and we feel and it’s okay to talk about our feelings and thoughts.
People are influenced by the company they keep (an observation).
Protect yourself, keep yourself safe -especially when you are a person who has a lot of empathy, and time for others.
Let other people talk, critique, gossip about you. It doesn’t matter what people do or don’t say who isn’t in your life.
Remember who you are.
We learn every day of our life.
Stay around people who ask how you are, who cares, who stick up for you. Forget about those who don’t.
Give people the benefit of the doubt but don’t ever allow anyone to disrespect you or bring you down. Or make you feel that your values are being disregarded.
Don’t hate. Let people find their own path.
Lessons I’ve learned lately. Opinion is not always the truth. I can’t be responsible for what a person understands.
Copyrighted Natasha bodley
The labyrinth is a Jungian symbol of the unconscious, the journey through the maze stands for the enigma of a discovery of ‘the Self’. This ties in with rituals and myths in which a cave is a symbol for creepy tunnels of exploration for the quest for knowledge or the hope to exit the cave metamorphosed.
The famous writer, Silvia Plath uses the symbol of a cave twice in her poem, Nick and the Candlestick. I was drawn to this poem after when I was working on my final project – an immersive art installation for my foundation degree in Acting Performance.
I didn’t know it’s meaning but I connected with it immediately. It is only in the last few years I’ve done more research into other meanings of her poem and startlingly it is seen as a poem that Sylvia wrote when she was pregnant. The tone of the poem suggests she rejects this baby. Sees it as an invasion of her body.
The cave appears to be a symbol of her womb.
I have hung our CAVE with roses,
With soft rugs—
This poem partly inspired my final Performance piece when I was doing my Performance acting degree. I had my abortion on the 24/10/2010 & I had less than 2 months to finish my degree. It was a low ebb in my life. I didn’t want to give up so, I used my live art performance to try & make sense of what was happening in my life.
I found this picture whilst browsing on social media. It is a disturbing picture. To me, it appears like the girl is saying: I won’t be silenced. The blood-soaked at the bottom of her dress gave me a feeling of peace.
The entire performance was a result of this picture, my intuition, making connections with other abstract stimuli and ideas that I could link to the original idea.
My aim of the live installation was to strip myself bare (metaphorically) until people could see the raw, real part that makes up a part of who I am.
I wanted nothing to be hidden ( though I ended up having to adapt my initial idea due to a black eye given to me by an ex. I had to get more creative & I did.
I felt /was so alone (everyone had turned their back on me but I thought ‘FUCK THE LOT OF THEM-PEERS, TUTORS FAMILY-EVERYONE’ I’m not going to let a black eye shame me not finishing my degree.
I don’t know why I called this project ‘Disambigous Immortality” perhaps I was going through the motions of grief. Perhaps I was looking for clarity & not to be judged by my peers.
My original idea was to be filmed in a cave or be on a swing in a park, blowing bubbles, dressed in white like the girl with blood on her dress – I suppose I wished to emulate innocence. Blissfully ignorant. That is how I WANTED TO appear to the audience. I had it pre-recorded & I edited it to run on a loop (via a projector) during the performance.
I wanted my space to be set up to mimic a church setting (with candles lit) and I wanted to be kneeling in front of the recording -watching it. This was meant to symbolise myself entrancing into self-actualisation or more likely self- realisation though this is the opposite of how I felt about what I was doing, to be honest.
The more I researched my ideas, the more fascinated I became with understanding the unconscious reasons for the ideas I used in the performance. Even specific choices such as the fabric I used, colour choice, words etc..
I decided to use blue for the blood and wore a white lace dress I found in a charity shop.
The colour blue, in chines symbolism, represents immortality.
The colour white (according to Chinese symbolism) symbolises an end to mourning.
The notion of wanting to appear innocent is because I wanted to appear lacking in guilt, and youthful in a blissfully ignorant way often related to youth
I think at the time I was coming to terms with having aborted my son, who would have been called, Nicholas Raven. I wasn’t prepared for the guilt( though I know it was the right thing to do at the time).
I was walking in the park the one day and I came across a blue feather on the ground and it made sense to incorporate blue feathers into my performance.
Nicholas would have born in spring -I told myself at the time that his soul/spirit/energy touched this mortal world in the medium of my body for a few months & then went on to exist on a higher plane -effectively not dead but immortal. That was my perspective at the time.
I then came across Sylvia Plath’s poem ‘Nick and the candlestick’. -a poem was written when Plath was heavily pregnant. I initially interpreted the poem as her feeling bloated vessel carrying a parasite. These feelings about her unborn child caused her to became depressed. Though I also understood that while she felt her unborn child sucking the life out of her-she hoped it would be born without her failings.
When I researched what lace meant in symbolism I came across a metaphor that I’ver never forgotten
‘Lace seeks to hide & expose at the same time, like a veil to cover or lingerie to reveal’
I ended up making a mask covered in lace -it was grotesque-ish & the opposite of innocent looking. It did hide my black eye though..
Its reality & it is in the past. I didn’t know I looked so bad at the time. Life moves on. 😀
To be continued with reflections from the night of the performance.
After last nights meltdown of a post, I finally managed to fall asleep. Thank you,the moon. The moon is often associated with our intuition, sleep and dreams. It is also connected with unconscious wishes. It’s the feminine to the masculine sun.
It is a new day – a new a dawn – a new life’ Nina Simone.
So today I want to focus on symbols connected to out emotions and instinct.
Yes, I had a shit day yesterday. The beauty of life is: just like the moon will always make its appearance so shall the sun. Until the Apocalypse of course. 😀 I’m not suggesting that men equal happiness (sunshine). Some do but so do women. :D. That’s my equality awareness comment out of the way.
Some see the moon as representing the soul. The moon has so much power over us. It controls the rain, the tides of the ocean, all four seasons.
There are 8 phases in the Lunar or moon cycle , we are currently in the third quarter of the phase of the moon. This is meant to be a time for letting go and to forgive. Time to clear the cobwebs from the mind, tidy up and surrender to my emotions.
I understand now why my feelings have been jumping all over the place. It is interesting how I chose last night to share the post where I felt like I was going ‘mad’. My brain was feeling pressurised. I felt burdened. I felt like I had a myriad of thoughts stuck in the vortex of my mind and not enough resources to process them. The paper of my printed thoughts was jammed and the switch to turn it off was broken.
I need to get my shit together. Time to buy some new ink. The new moon is on it’s way and this will be a time for a fresh start. So no point ruminating over things I can’t change. I am already thinking about the things I need to do, what jobs I need to start. Training courses I need to prioritize. I need to shake out the dust of any excess useless energy leftovers. Only then I can move forward with confidence and make March a month where I achieve what I want to achieve. To use the moons power to aid me instead of being merely governed by it.
Last Quarter MoonNow is the time to let go, release, and forgive anything and everyone that you may feel has hurt you in any way. It is a time of emptying self and allowing the universe to take over or whomever you trust in your faith. It is out of your hands and no more action is needed from you.http://www.astrologizing.net/lunarcycle.html
Maybe I am scared of things being ‘taken out of my hands’ . I want to push forward but the natural cycle and rhythm of nature is compelling me to take no action. To rest, to find peace.
Something I struggle with a lot. I’ve never looked at my struggles in the context of symbolism before. It makes sense why I am exhausted and all over the place emotionally. Natures message is clear:
I need to prepare for the new moon and what I want to achieve.
Balsamic Moon Peace. This is the time to surrender, rest, and recuperate. No more thinking, planning, getting in your own way, or action of any kind; just peace. As the Moon slowly enters “the dark of the Moon,” we allow our visual minds to become dark, too, and still. Peace
I’m sure a few of you have heard the connection of our monthlies with the moon. Many moons ago women would retreat into their homes and take a kind of sabbatical. Doors closed with a huge -‘DO NOT DISTURB’ sign hanging on the doorknob. What a perfect time to tell people what is really on your mind and then we can blame it on the natural cycle of the moon. We can call it ‘Monthly madness truths’- what a great therapy technique, ne ce pas?
This is really interesting and a bit gross too but we are all adults? I started my monthlies yesterday so I am getting rid of physical and metaphorical debris. By the time the new moon arrives. I will once again have my fertility powers restored. I can create new life– again metaphorically or physical I wish Science would give Astrology more credit.
So what can message can we take away with us? Well, I have discovered from this post that I need to be more aware I am of my surroundings, what is happening not only within me but to also look and be more aware of what is going on outside of me. This knowledge can help guide me to focus and get the maximum results out of my life.
We never stop learning
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