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the Meowskies

She gets on with life as a wannabe music journalist,
She’s a charismatic kinda gal.
She likes chilling on Sundays,
She likes reading in the week.
She likes to contemplate owning a goat.
But when she starts to daydream,
Her mind turns straight back to her cat-Tatty Anna

Sometimes I look at her and I look into her eyes,
I notice the way she idolises about  Tatiana with a smile,
sensual lips she can’t disguise.
But she thinks it’s GOAT making her life worthwhile.
Why is it so hard for her to decide which she loves more?
Goats or…
Cats?

She likes to use words like ‘eish man
She likes to use words like ‘sorry.’
She likes to use words about GOAT finds
But when she stops her talking,
Her mind turns straight back to Tatiana having a heart attack.

She likes to hang out with Pinkie
She likes to kick back with Belle,
But when left alone,
Her mind turns  inwards  she obsesses over losing her Tats

She’s not too fond of gossip,
She really loves cheesecake & wants a goat
But she just thinks back to Tatiana
And she’s happy once again. knowing she is owned.

 

Shrouded Sun Screen

*photo credit Francesca Woodman, Space2, Providence, Rhode Island, 1977, © George and Betty Woodman*

‘Always wear sunscreen’ – comes from a song.

Wisest life advice I’ve ever heard?

‘Don’t read beauty magazines they will only make you feel ugly. ‘

Quoting like I’m toting.

Screens -Scenes. Teams. Streams.

Rhyme it out until I get an inspiration to scream.

I Love screens. What to watch?

 I never wore sunscreen.

I went under the artificial tan beams when I hit the isle of  Blighty. Cancer, I probably have.

The world is full of it. Boasting in its insidious arrogant fashion. We can’t slip away from any malady.

Life is a parody.

Stage screens. Projections. People hustling and bustling about in the form of shadows.

Cue: Audio – people chattering, laughing, Christmas jingles pop out like a pack of Pringles.

‘Once you pop you can’t stop’

Stream of consciousness interrupted by my very own human Bee.

How you doing ? – A total Joey from the series ‘friends’.

 

Beware of enemies posing as your bros and sisters. Cut out cardboard – fake, one-dimensional – prankster – inanimate.

Politics have got me in the corner of a boxing ring, cutting teeth on my mouthguard.

Betray my thoughts and beliefs when I mention the pantomime that is crawling underneath the flesh of America’s skin.

I don’t want to share any posts on this farce. Spread more hate and give more time to something that makes me want to spew my guts out.

 

Angry on behalf of all that is left of humanity.

The stupidity line is growing longer than the start of the poverty sign.

One screen dividing the people and oh wait they are all in the same queue.

Branded – I can’t stand it.

 

Fuck Kim K and K west and all the KKK’s and the rest of the Hollywood bandit Muppet crew in folly land with extra zest.

All lives matter. Seriously?

I’m about ready to pack my bag with the bare necessities. Head out to the jungle and live life with my true fellow earthlings.

If I could grow fur, I wouldn’t need sunscreen.

 

What the hell are we humans even doing here when we can’t even adapt or evolve in our natural surroundings?

Destroy, conquer, divide- it’s a woeful stuttering thought.

Soon we will be paying for the air we breathe.

“Water is not a basic human right” Just a thought from Nestle.

Stop polluting what was given to us.

Stop changing the screen to the scenery you want the commoners to see.

We are dying.

 

Hairdresser fed up of listening to other people moan. She applies for a job to treat people in a morgue.

Silence.

Now you listen to me!

We all need to talk even if it is behind a screen – a mask.

I’d rather bleed from my eyes than cover my true feelings, opinions, and thoughts.

People can laugh. I don’t care.

Scan my soul  and I will pass every scripture criteria to go to anyone of your chosen heavens.

Arrogant?

Perhaps.

I reflect what I see in others. We are but mirrors of another.

Despise me?    Something inside me resonates with you. What are you hiding?

Drawn to me?    remove the smokescreen – brave soldier-admits and refuses to deny that we all share common dreams,

feel similar emotions.

Have days when it’s all commotion after commotion.

I scream – a throwback to the bairn I never intended to wean.

Heartless – that would mean I am aimless.

I’ve had my eye on a spot. That takes more heart and commitment than spouting out hateful, denounced rhetoric.

 

Chloridic.

Grief- ridden, sick chick.

She should have grabbed the knife.

She should have locked the door.

She should have put more clothes on.

She should have done the cha- cha- cha.

 

Would it have saved her?

Polo – life mint- raspy breath in need of sprightly death.

It’s fun to dream. It’s even better to live it.

 

Wear sunscreen?

Protection –  duty to our children- the ones who love us.

I say be reckless -not with others hearts- but be a part of the movement to dine with the  Ming dynasty, hovering somewhere above, a local art museum, in some loco town down in  Acapulco.

 

The song I was on about when my thoughts were rambling.

When following sheep to sleep fails playlist

I couldn’t sleep so found these tracks to amuse me while I danced till I  dropped.

Nothing else to find here. Use your ears to read the mood.  Bipolar edition. ERM…..  For myself.

Lavender sheep audio

WIP Like Cartharrt! Work in progress. I blame the lack of lavender smelling sheep for this.

Dead Dong Ringer

Time stands still

Waiting for my child

To pick her up from her school.

Locked out

I’m no fool

Schools not meant to be cool.

Just another institution

Similar to a prison.

My constitution was made to rebel

For a cause

Less

Waiting around on top.

Never thought I’d glimpse a shadow of my former self -over the hill.

Curse these minutes.

Frozen into a state of blissful ignorance.

Wrapped up into a stationary kit.

Sigh

Sudden bowel movements

I feel ill.

Bad humour lost to a desolate sky.

Simmer into another ghetto outfit

Sparse Sunshine shimmer flecks

Until my skin unravels into motion.

For this moment

I’m not a suicide kid

Instead, I’m knocked out

By a dead dong ringer

Them there eyes

Catch sight of her eyes.

How they glimmer!

* inspired by the school run & national poetry day  & Life

 I’m genuinely happy to be alive. Not because life is perfect today but because I’m happy, humble and honest.

  • Write to recover

  • Create to recover

  • Communicate to recover

  • Connect to recover

  • Collaborate to recover.

Spoken word -when words are few

Such a sexy little number

I cry looking for a matching lingerie set

in

case

I want to look great for the moment I hit Downunder.

Laugh at your tears

Say a Huge fuck you to your fears.

This is the week when bash didn’t do it for me

Sniff

Sniff

Banging

Pocket pat down

hear a jingle

Family matters is more substantial for me.

Write to recover or die trying to live the life of another.

Freedom will come from sucking the teet from how you was mothered.

Be real

authenticate

deliberate who you gonna get rid of

You know them Twockers,

those who instigate?

I dilly dally

Think

Cut through the same ally

Second thoughts

Nah, maybe… another time.

No masterpiece -is this stream of consciousness

Too oily for an academic poets diet

Borderline poetry on the rocks

Top of the evening to those who think creativity is a bit of alright.

About – how this blog changed my life

#NYAMR Floating Points

Floating Points has come under my radar recently with

  1. Coorabell- visual & ear galactic delight. It took me three listens to fall in love with the track. I kept coming back to it  Why?  4:21 mins is the moment I fell in love-100%. Sam Bishop (birth name) drops in hard techno yet still maintain the spirit of not becoming lost to the machine of electronic music. Electronic Ambience with a holy mother of God punch.

 

Turns out Floating points is a Neuroscientist turned D.J.  -(He studied the Neuroscience of pain)  He’s managed to gain respect with the likes of Four tet, Kode 9, and Theo Parrish in the current electronic/EDM movement.

He has a classically trained background he describes as ‘classical, baroque, romantic renaissance’.

He discovered through improvising  & experimenting on the piano  with what he later identified as jazz compositions.  That was how he learned to break the rules.

He cites he was influenced by the  Brazilain sounds of bossa nova of artists such as Gal Costa.

He was challenged to explore electronic music (which didn’t have the instruments such as the clarinet or violin) because the music still moved him.

He describes it as making sense of ‘organised noise’. He started finding music possibilities that he felt in every day, organic  sounds such as being on a train

The second track I listened to of Manchesters, Sam Bishop ( Floating points) was

Les Alpx -The video explodes colours of plasma have a calming effect to contrast to the tempo of the track

I love the energy. It’s bordering hardcore techno yet retains a melody I can relate to

Something I can only refer to as  -the  ‘soul clap’.  I’m not a huge fan of hardcore techno

If a track brings on a feeling resembling the soul clap then that is what usually wins me over.

What I like about his music is that he has insight into how he produces music  – there is a methodical approach creating music with science and using visual media create an immersive experience of sound and using visual imagery to create a space where we can see music. Music that engages multiple sensory stimuli.

I feel like Science x creativity with a touch of esotericism is a perfect equation for experimental music – He named his debut album-  Elaenia. (after having a dream about) a tropical bird.

 

GOAT drop bahs not bombs

Tonight’s #notyouraverage music review  was produced by Parisian based music label, Nouvelle Ambiance (known for celebrating cultural & musical collaborations)  

It merges Kenyan, Arabic &  Egyptian culture & traditional musical percussion instruments, drums and vocals to create a 15-minute soundscape that is just dope.  

The track ‘Mabomba dance’ took my soul on a  cosmic journey, so hypnotic that my feet & body were charmed into a dalliance on an otherworldy dancefloor.  The only thing missing was me wearing a goat fur Kondo headpiece.   (Maybe not) 😀

STRANGE  TRIVIA: the Kondo is part of the traditional Kenyan attire to don when dancing to the Nyatiti (plucked Kenyan lyre).

The entire EP ‘ Wolf Muller meets the Nile project’ is G.O.A.T. -it is music that is in a league of its own.

It was recorded in the Egyptian city of Aswan, by Jan Schulte (Wolf Müller & Bufiman) & Kenyan and Egyptian musicians Kasiva Mutua, Rapasa Nyatrapasa Otieno and Adel Mekha.

Enjoy!

Wolf Müller meets the Nile Project by Wolf Müller meets the Nile Project

 

Be happy or die trying You tube series – ItsstillOK2talk

(written in 1st &  3rd person in quotes tbr)

She didn’t know why she felt the need to document her suicide attempt, and post suicide. She says that she genuinely wanted to die. She spent many months angry at her mother, angry and displaced because the doctors told her mother to expect the worst. She had been in ICU for over 8 hours. Her suicide was was not an attempt to hurt anybody especially not her daughter.

She felt it was best for everyone & she couldn’t live with her self & her illnesses any longer. She was in the system of benefits. She had received a PIP claim form to prove she needed some form of income to live on, her daughter’s child tax credits were stopped on Christmas eve 2017. Her mariage had broken down due to erratic behaviour and actions & life stress.

She had to give the go-ahead to the doctor to snow her Aunt with Morphine. She sang to her aunt until the death rattle passed. She watched her grandmother die from vascular Dementia & Alzheimers (over a period of 3 days). She watched her own mother look after her mother until she passed away on Mothers day 2017.

Her wedding day was mixed with joy, stress, emotions & her Anorexia/Bipolar started to manifest in not eating/drinking fluids to make up the 4 hours of the gym she did for 4 years 4 hours every day. She had a cracking body but at what cost?  She holds on to too much guilt -not all her own to own.

She hopes to edit.make cuts of all the footage in a documentary( the good, the bad, the ugly). Why? To help her understand herself.

“When I’m on self destruct I am good at trying to kill myself/allow people to abuse me & lose my way. Albeit slowly through starving myself & ending up in multiple hospitals with Braccardyia and failing organs. ”

She recalls unsuccessfully trying to throw herself off a bridge.
“The police grabbed me as I put out her arms and feet out to jump. ”
The previous night, she had taken an overdose worthy of being at the very least hospitalised however she woke up shocked – alive & devasted.

“Whatever I put my mind to I am a person who ( surprisingly) and through sheer stubbornness who succeeds to my detriment or wellbeing.”

Last year, her psychiatrist of 10 years was moments awayy from sectioning her again. He knows her well. She is usually able to reason & is too honest for her own good at times.

“I was hypomanic and through misusing medication I went into drug-induced psychosis. I didn’t hear things or see things. I had to comply with fortnightly injections. I didn’t want my daughter to think I didn’t love her so that is why I filmed my attempt. I saw no bright light, I heard no ambulance, I don’t recall anything except my disappointment at still being alive.”

She adds,

“I work on my self every day to love myself.

Acknowledging she doesn’t get it right all the time. These videos are not edited nor are they in order. It’s one of her multiple ongoing projects.

“I hope to tie this in with the hard work I did on myself by getting out into the world, volunteering with Mental health charities, writing, getting involved in the creative industry and I realised how much I had to give through experience. I wasn’t stupid. I have qualities people in the mental health & Creative arts sector look for.”

Her mental health deteriorated again. She has been well & she believes she will get well again.

” There are no limits to recovery from an illness. No, they might be terminal or chronic and never go away. We may know we will die from say Cancer. It’s about the quality of life we live while we are still here. I’d rather die at 60 & have done the things I want to than live to an age of 80 -lonely, old, neglected & liability to society.”

 

NYA Music Feature: Corky Traxman Strong

A man not afraid to express his emotions (as difficult as it may be at times) & talk about music, politics, beliefs, values & his future aspirations. Interview further down.

 

I had a crazy phone interview (covering so many topics) with, Corky strong Traxman. He  explained  how his two biggest influences –US Garages, Larry Lavin and Chicago’s Frankie knuckles shaped his own musical style as one of the co-founders of the footwork genre community. 

 

Larry Levin quick started a whole new genre to electronic music -blending Latin -Spanish Harlem, hip hop & underground disco music in New York that would inspire Frankie knuckles to salvage disco in Chicago with the techniques he learned off  Lavin in New York.

 

He dared to play & remix songs other D.J.’s were afraid to play.

This was the early 80’s when Chicago radio declared :

‘Disco music is a disease -It is a disco dystrophy’ 

Some of this prejudice against disco was due to the transgender scene that Lavin flouted. Radio wasn’t ready to put gay black music on the airwaves.

So the warehouse with Frankie Knuckles at the helm, became for many of the Chicago dance community another place to socialise with like-minded souls. It was referred to as a house. Or church.

Disco has its revenge -Frankie’s knuckles

Frankie & the Chicago underground music scene tried to preserve disco & created a new sound ‘chicago acid house’

To understand corky’s music style we have to delve into history.

Soul, dance & technology created a new hybrid.

When you try to kill something, it goes underground & comes back harder the early 80’s 

Corky had the opportunity to embrace both music scenes

 

It was a very diverse scene my uncle had a girlfriend whose brother was openly gay in the early ’80s and they used to go to the warehouse on the martian circuit. We had Spanish Harlem.

Did you ever get caught up in drug scene -ecstasy vibe?

I’ve never done ecstasy.

As a kid, I didn’t experience or witness hard drugs. It was 1981. There were big parties but I was too young, y’ know. Then when I hit 13 years old I became the curious DJ I met up with

Slick Rick  the masters ( the American music producer )  

Steve p .and through dance mania (records) in 1984, and that’s when we  got a taste for the party scene

Corky was signed up to the dance mania label  ( founded by Jesse James in 1985) 

In 1987 the door opened and I met up with slick rick the master. And a body down the projects called DJ. Funk 1 * (check ref ) we hung out at the Jam House (and) Gerald did something we’d never seen before. He used a cassette machine to make our own beats. One track was Sleazy Dee’s ‘Loss of control’. and another  THEN  one of the U.K. music house hits was ‘No way back traxman 

Corky was a co-founder of TEK LIFE (Top 50 Rolling Stones magazine in EDM music for 2017 ( album insert)  – reviving the footwork era -( CSTraxman has a varied & insane knowledge about music and genres. So what inspired to become a part of The footwork genre with  (the deceased) D.J. Rashed? 

TO understand music sometimes you have to know the history, then you can appreciate it more and give it a try.

What have you been able to do with music and your vocation /career  

Think of another word?

I’ve now got my own label – Music chicago -we – Rob ( muffled sounds in the back ground) -our distributor in Germany open it so that we had the freedom to make our own choices. 

Corky lists his other influences as the Hotmix five 

Delving into politics ( music & politics are inseparable for those who have something to say or something they believe in) – reword 

 

So what do you make of Trump?

Trump doesn’t concern us -African people, you know… What he is doing to us -he is not doing anything to us that hasn’t been done before.

What about Obama? 

Fuck Obama! (laughs).He did something for the American people & the minorities. He didn’t do anything for the Black people…. Obama gave no tangibles 

(asked to elaborate)

The black people wanted 365 days of Free labour back?

 

How do you think that is going to happen? 

 

I dunno a grassroots campaign (gives example) Hold your own nuts , you know.. Don’t do harm to children & babies & that’s it. 

 

What Kind of people do you think are drawn to your music?

I dunno, Normal people-you don’t have to be white or black or transgender. 

Corky’s biggest base is in Japan and when I asked him what genres of music were popular there he said:

It’s not just footwork & Juke . They are massively into reggae & beats like that.

To follow is our  conversation about a suicidal kid in Phoenix,U.S.A .

Check him out on Bandcamp below.

 

When words are few

When Words are few

Connect

Create.

Collaborate

With other Creativists.

creativists

Noun — (1) To be a creative activist. (2) To challenge conventionality using art and expressionismas your tools. (3) To creatively enactchange.

Someone who is attuned creatively to their surroundings; a person who understands and expresses their lifethrough creativeworksor motifs.

URBAN DICTIONARY

When I don’t feel able to talk to anyone my thoughts are scattered and strewn about;

I’ve always found clarity & relief with the help of writing and Music. Music allows me to put displaced emotions into a feeling of organized chaos.

It can help with replacing my emotions and self talk to break the negative cycle I’m in and I can re-engage with people (even if on a small level) and feel passionate about life and my goals again.

I believe that we are all creativists — We don’t need to sing well, play an instrument or be a DJ, professional dancer to express our emotions through music. Personally, I enjoy combining my passion for writing about and listening to music to get what I need from music.

We don’t need to have a degree in Music and Arts to feel or write about it. Although that’s cool too.

Google, a couple of books, communicating with people who are into music, and your soul-should be enough to make whatever it is that you get out/want out of the music industry- happen. Oh, and passion and focus helps too 😉

Self-expression is creative.

When we find a medium to feel, it can help us feel that we’ve been heard-we are being creative.

I’m more than passionate about Mental health and anti-stigma. I know the Music industry is in need of more help to help artists channel their energy productively, but like any industry as big as the entertainment industry there is a lot of pressure and stress attached to achieving our goals.

On the flip side of the coin, there are the obvious benefits being creative in any medium can have on improving mental health.

One massive stumbling block to (ahem..)blocking creativity is not connecting with people who allow us to create something with another person. It could start out as a simple conversation, comment, idea, compliment, dream, or career.

This decision to connect with a person/group creates.

We are all creativists. Technology and social media help to communicate. So that even a person who doesn’t or who can’t get out and “connect” socially can still be super dope in their creative outlets via the internet.

Self- Doubt and listening too much to other people’s negative opinion can wreak havoc on your confidence and ability to express yourself. This is intensified for people who are suffering from their mental health issues.

Of course, feedback is a good thing. Pick your mentors wisely, if (like me )you want to write about music or work in the Music industry.

Find someone who doesn’t rip you to shreds. Constructive criticism and being a blunt asshole can seem like the same thing coming from an “expert” but it’s not.

Constructive criticism is taking into account the overall work and presentation and breaking that feedback into sections. It should be honest and tactful. There is no one way to write a review, or compose a piece of music or run a music label.

When you connect you have an opportunity to create something with another individual who has a whole different system of thoughts, beliefs, ideas and experiences to contribute.

You don’t know what the result is going to be and that can be the best part of the creative process: The not knowing. We often surprise ourselves with what we can do when we just-DO IT!

The collaboration process doesn’t have to be a huge gig,

Or it can be.

It can be anything.

I’ve uploaded on social media have spoken word/music oddities that I’ve made on garage band!

My favourite recorded spoke word project is one I did with a mate. It was fun.

I’m not too precious about what people think. Creativists should take risks and often end up surprising themselves.

Don’t let other peoples talents or your own self-doubt, or a lack of knowledge of music theory, for example, stop you from expressing yourself. If you want to learn to play an instrument well. Then you have to put in the effort. Technology makes it so much easier to connect and learn.

I’ve also started writing song reviews on my blog. Not everyone gets it or likes it but its something I’m passionate about doing. Blogs should evolve if we are to change, surely? They need work and I need to Improve. We all have to start somewhere.

NWA all the way.

EXPRESS YOURSELF!